I look like a normal girl on the outside but I’m such a detrimental person on the inside. My soul is a convoluted and forbidden place. The ambivalent nature of my mind continues to hurt the ones that want to love me. I have hurt and play every guy that ever fell for me. 

I make promises with someone when I’m happy. .I make bad decisions when I’m angry. I make stupid mistakes 

I am incapable of truly loving. It frustrates me how I see all these girls give everything they have to the boy they love. Why can’t I do that? Why is it so hard for me to let someone in? Why is it so hard for me to fall in love again? Every guy that ever fell for me always left hurt. They left hurt because I didn’t know myself. No one really knows what they’re getting themselves into when they give their heart to me. Honestly, I crush it and return it. I’m sorry that I’m a horrible person…

*there’s a reason why I became like this*